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ahh i am alive i promise!! i just realized my journal from like a million years ago is still there, way too depressing.. so i thought i'd just say hello! my drawing is going down the toilet.. i seriously havn't drawn anything since like x-mas, besides those random skool girls lol, but yeah i have no idea, i've just given up!! i don't have the time!! or the patience! whats going on:( i don't even feel guilty that i havn't drawn, whereas usually i do.. was drawing just like a phase i went through? for a REALLY long time??? i dunno.. but meh, maybe in the holidays i'll watch some cartoons and have another crack at it:D so uni's going pretty

so uni starts pretty soon, god i can't wait. my brain is slowly turning to mush from lack of use.. i feel sorry for it! tell ya what i realized tho.. i've never had ANY control over my life. like sure, i kinda decided what i was going to do today, although because of the weather, my options were limited (and yes i chose to stay home..) but like.. when it comes to the bigger picture, i've simply been sitting back and watching whats happening, rather than deciding for myself. It's my life right? so how come i havn't got control?? maybe it's just because im so lazy.. but all through school, i never really had a choice of what subjects i was goin

oh my it's bin a while since i've written a journal.. but, there's not exactly a whole gang of ppl craving to read bout my life haha so.. i didn't really see the point. so i had english today.. didn't go down too badly infact, cuda bin a lot worse.. but it also cuda bin a lot better i spose^^; ah well, english was neva my strong subject. (and by that i mean i hate it and don't see the point in it.. i know how to speak english.. gosh..) well.. 1 down, 5 to go!!... i've bin neglecting drawing a lot lately, even practising and doodling and stuff. i kinda feel guilty i havn't bin, but i have no idea why i feel that way.. it's not like anyone'